Breaking Away From Striving

antler and red clothJan 5, 2016 ~ It is 2016 and a new year is born and an old year has moved on. It seems to have happened in the blink of an eye. Within the year’s time frame, a short page of our soul’s life time has been reviewed. My personal life story passed through many blessings, joys, pains, ups and downs, flats, bumps and smooth terrain as I worked at keeping my heart open even during times I felt I was lost. It was a year of great transformation for me.

The closing of 2015 came as a gift from the great spirit. How could I have asked for more? I felt as if everything was in its proper place and carefully balanced. All happened as if in a dream, making me wonder if I was awake or asleep. It was a majestic closure and opening for the next part of my story. Some of you must be wondering what made it all so special or magical?

I recently was blessed to visit the sacred Mt Shasta with special friends and one very ancient friend, the Crystal skull “Compassion.” At first, this might not seem magical but for my soul’s understanding, this was a very magical and deeply spiritual time for me. This experience was not organized by me, instead it was all orchestrated for me. I had no expectations, ideas or plans of how to release the old year. I received this new year gift with a sense of letting go, an awareness of not needing to strive.  Something just clicked within me.

For the last 3 months of 2015, I had been asking “Who am I? What is the right direction on my path?” and many other questions about where I was supposed to be compared to where I felt I was. Trying too hard, I realize now that I was looking to be something that I am not. Sometimes when we lose our self-identity instead of finding the deep truth within, we create a stereotype or incorrect ideal of ourselves. Rather than bringing us closer to our truth, this striving takes us far away from our inner truth, our higher selves. Through simply letting go and not trying to figure it out all on my own, I was able to realize that I am a part of the great universal source. I became at peace with myself and one with the whole universe. I recognized that I am part of the greater consciousness. I am connected with the whole consciousness; I am in everything and everywhere as well as in one place.

Often in life, we may get caught up in a self-identification experience attempting to label where we belong, so that we move away from the essence of just being that keeps us in communion with the source of being universal, being human, and being spirit. To be light, to be love and loved needs to be continually awakened through the inner work of allowing it to happen, rather than forcing it to happen.


In numerology this year is 9, meaning it is the end of a cycle. In my understanding this means this is the end; a time to become who we are from the place our essence has been liberated, the origin of our creation. Finding our way back to the essence of who we truly are and continually awakening ourselves, we begin to look within rather than be overly influenced by that which is outside of us.

Experience the mysticism of life every moment!

Many blessings for a transformational year.

Light and love!

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